In the twenty-five years since I went forth, I have not found peace of mind, even as long as a finger-snap.
Since I couldn’t get my mind unified, I was racked by desire for pleasures of the senses. Wailing, with outstretched arms, I left my dwelling.
Or shall I commit suicide? What’s the point of living? For how on earth can one such as me die after resigning the training?
Then I picked up a razor, I sat on a cot: the razor was ready to slice my vein.
Then the realization came upon me—the danger became clear, and I was firmly disillusioned.
Then my mind was freed—behold the clear rightness of the teaching! I’ve attained the three knowledges, and fulfilled the Buddha’s instructions.
Sappadāsa
Thag 6.6 · Sappadāsattheragāthā
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- TheragāthāThe collection containing this text
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Books
- Handful of Leaves: an Anthology from the Sutta PiṭakaEarly Buddhist discourses; Ṭhānissaro Bhikkhu (translator and compiler) · Included in anthology
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Translation by Bhikkhu Sujato and Jessica Walton · SuttaCentral · CC0
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